tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40349958571336102024-03-13T11:50:12.777-07:00Life's like that!Just some musings about things that transpire in daily life...Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-67399729738687824952011-05-15T09:53:00.008-07:002011-05-15T10:33:30.167-07:00Love is a bitch...<span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:85%;">They say 'Life is a Bitch'; but I say 'Love is a Bitch'... it bites you when you least expect it and the bite stings... <br /><br />Ok, so this time it's gonna be a bit more personal than always. There are a zillion questions on my mind right now - why am I always attracted to guys who are wrong for me? They are not bad people, just the wrong fit for me. Why is it that I always make th wrong choices when it comes to love? Well, there are no real answers to these very real questions, so I am not going to spend time in digging my brain trying to find any. Let that go, is what I tell myself. I am trying to be positive these days and its not easy. Its tough being positive when all you encounter on your way there is mostly disappointments. But I suppose passing them and not letting go is half the battle won. But the war is still on. And the worst part is, you are at war with yourself. <br /><br />Talking a zillion people will only get you a zillion opinions and a trillion advices. But in the end its you that has to make the decision. I have been told that we talk to a lot of people trying to find that one person who agrees with what's on our mind. And when we get that affirmation we were looking for, to do whatever it is you are trying to do - be it buying a new pair of shoes you know you don't need or trying to confess your sentiments to that one person you think is the one, we feel like we are going in the right direction. We do what we have been meaning to do even though it might not really be the right thing. <br /><br />Not working - I have talked to a lot of people and have heard varied arguments. Some of them were downright negative; and believe me you that when you are walking on the positive path listening to people puke out negative sentiments is not easy, it makes you sick to find out that anyone can be that negative; and there were some who made a lot of sense and some who just agreed with me without any oppositions. In the end, I am left standing with no real answers, just a lot more to think about.<br /><br />I have been asked to play all sorts of mind games to find out things, but where does that leave me. I had made a decision which was shot down at once and by a majority vote too. But ever since I have taken that advice, all I am feeling is confusion and restlessness.<br /><br />All of it has only left me thinking - and I don't know if I will ever find the answer to this one too - Is it really worth it? Are all these mind games really necessary, and then they say girls are manipulative - hmph! Can i not just be straight with the dude and bring this to an end. I was ready for the consequences of it since day one. <br /><br />I have realized one thing today - all this has only left me bitter and resentful towards the one person I liked. Maybe he does not reciprocate the same feelings which is fine by the way. I was ready for that. But all this discussion has done, is found a way to bring back those negative thoughts and a lot of 'ifs' and 'buts'. <br /><br />It's lead me to wonder - why do we make things so complicated? Yes, being straight forward might lead us to heartache and disappointments, but in the end we are doing the right thing - are we not? Why go through the torture of not talking and being in touch, when we can have those happy moments to remember later on rather than wondering and having that big what if hanging on our heads all the time?<br /><br />Well, I don't think there is a straight answer to this one either... Do you?<br /></span></span></span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-14244248252285513682011-01-01T08:33:00.005-08:002011-01-01T08:49:41.774-08:00Desires...so close yet so far...<span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:85%;">I wish I had a nice house, I wish I had a car, a new phone, a pet; the list never ends does it? No matter where you are in life, there is always that one thing you wish you had. Not always possible though. Sometimes you are in such a situation that no matter how bad you want something, how practical it might seem to get it, you just can't.<br /><br />The reasons could be anything - disagreements in the family about why you need that something, your in-decisiveness, too many options etc. Sometimes you want it but the situation warrants something else. You know that the right thing would be put it out of your mind and move on, but it's never easy is it? Specially if you have your heart set on it. Desire can be a killer in such situations. You are angry at the whole world for putting you in this situation but your mind tells you that feeling angry and let down is not right, that for now letting it go is the thing to do. It's a tug-of-war between your heart and mind.<br /><br />What should you do then? What if this situation will never pass and if it does, what guarantee that something else won't crop up? How much more to wait? Should one go ahead and get the thing they desire irrespective of what others say? But that would be wrong and you would only feel guilty and sad if you are the only one who is excited about it and end up alone with everyone else frowning down on you!<br /><br />It's a difficult situation. At the end I guess it's all about patience. It does reap the best fruit right? Just because we can't get something right away does not mean we will never get it. So I guess it's safe to say that keep the desire alive but put on simmer rather than high heat. That way it will not boil and overflow. It will simply stay there gathering heat and will be well done when the time is right. Yeah?<br /><br />CheerS!<br /><br /></span></span></span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-51179248801347733182010-11-28T05:04:00.024-08:002010-11-28T07:09:09.147-08:00Perceptions..<span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:85%;">Standing on the balcony, steaming mug of coffee in hand, enjoying the sunset. Looking west I see the beautiful colors of evening from the softest of oranges to lightest of blues all seamlessly blending into the darker shades of the night. As soon as my eyes move around and the sound of all the honking falls onto the ears, all the peace and serenity I felt just a few moments ago faded away. The contrast between the serene sky and the chaotic roads is so striking.<br /><br />Last evening went out for a walk, headphones on to block out the noisy traffic... when observing everything that was going around me without actually hearing it, felt so different. People going about their business, cars coming and going, all the usual hustle bustle of the evening, yet it was peaceful. Take the headphones off and all you want to do is get out of there.<br /><br />Perceptions play such a big role in life. When I look up at the sky, I feel like a tiny speck. The enormity of this roof makes you realize that you are just a small entity in the huge scheme of things and that your problems are just as small, maybe even smaller.<br /><br />Then why do we concentrate so hard on the things that are not working out, on things that are out of reach or around the corner rather than enjoying what we have in the now, right there in front of us.<br /><br />We cannot change the decisions we made yesterday, last week or last year, so what if today we think they were wrong.<br /><br />Standing outside on the balcony, mug now empty looking up at the now dark sky, marking the end of yet another day reminded me of what I had forgotten - I was just a tiny speck and that my problems were just as small. So if you feel like its the end of the world and have that feeling of 'Why Me?' just look up and breathe. And be reminded that you are not alone... they are others out there looking up too...<br /></span></span></span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-41422444802581289252009-11-28T05:20:00.004-08:002009-11-28T06:05:23.565-08:00Family...<span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-size:85%;">It's a long time since I have been living by myself. All the time on my own. In a way I have lost the sense of being with a family... you know with mom and dad. All this time I have only imagined how it would be. It's not like I have not lived with them at all but the little time that I have spent, has passed in arguing and contradicting each other. Each one of us trying to prove that we are right and the other person wrong.<br /><br />Whenever I have been alone and have been too lonely I used to miss them. I used to wish that I get one chance to live with them before I get married. The only regret I have ever had has been that I did not get to develop a relation with them. I just know that I am not supposed to say or speak of certain things in front of them - you know avoid telling them this and that... but I don't know what they would enjoy and what they would like to hear.<br /><br />I have been given another chance to spend time with them. It's been 2 days since they arrived and it's already sort of driving me crazy. I guess it's partly because I am not used to being around them. I am not used to having people around me. It's always been Me myself alone.. that's it.<br /><br />All the time I have missed them, I have thought about how it would be to stay with them with everyone getting along just fine. But that has not happened till today. We always have squabbles about things - big or small.<br /><br />But I just realized, that this is what it is like. To stay with them. The arguments and squabbles. That's what it is going to be like. The reason being none of us know each other the way we ought to.<br /><br />My mother never talks to me about the important things. About those things she talks to my brother. That hurts most of the times, specially if it is something that has to do with me. But that's how its going to be. Cause the both of us have never spent quality time together. We went our separate ways when I was sixteen - so we never have that kind of conversation. We talk yes. We gossip too. But when it comes to talking about something that is bothering her - specially if it is about me - she will not discuss that with me. That used to bother me - but now I guess I have to make peace with it and let it go.<br /><br />So Mom - it's OK that you don't talk to me about things that bother you. You are welcome to discuss them with Neel if that makes you happy. I hope you are able to solve your issues with me by talking to him.<br /><br />About Dad; well what do I say about this man. I don't know him at all. All I know is that he gets real irritated with everything around him. I have no idea how to deal with him or talk to him. The best thing about him is that he is a man of little words. And that suits me well. Cause when I am at home, I don't talk too much either. So we can be in the same room for hours and not talk and that's OK with both of us. He does his stuff and I do mine. Not the same with mom.. I told her to give me 30 minutes while I write this and she has asked me remove my headphones thrice already - but all I tell myself is - breath. just breath.<br /><br />And that is what I have decided to do - Breath. Just Breath.<br /><br />I am going to try to ignore most of the things that bother me - cause I have to learn to live with these people and I cannot do that if I am letting myself get irritated with them every minute. I have to get to know how to work with them from scratch. I have to reach out to them and if they are not going to open themselves to me - I have to try to open up to them. Of course with them there are certain boundaries - I guess that's the case with all Indian parents - where there's always a line which you cannot go over. I did not use the word 'cross' because that is not what I meant. When I say there is a line - I guess I am talking about the gen gap or the gap in thought processing. Being exposed to both the Indian and American cultures, I have tried to pick up the good from both. But they still find it difficult to deal with my thoughts.<br /><br />I am trying to work with what I have here. Like the cliched saying - when life gives you lemons, make lemonade... so I am trying to make lemonade.<br /><br />So - Breath. Just Breath. Let it go. Relax. Don't take life so seriously...<br /></span></span></span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-11500848640756595902009-09-05T20:11:00.004-07:002009-09-05T20:30:07.547-07:00...could not think of anything to call this one<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-family: verdana;">Change is the only constant in life goes the saying... so true isn't it. 8 months into this new year, and so many things have changed. Nothing is how it was at the beginning of this year. The only thing that hasn't changed is that I am still single :)</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">My entire friend circle here is broken... people have moved on to new things - new jobs, new homes etc... I am waiting for a group of people from work to make a decision on my near future. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">It sucks how I have so little control on this particular situation. I read somewhere that when we have so many unknowns to deal with we should not dwell too much on it. Put those thoughts on the back burner and let the universe take care of it. Well its harder than it sounds - to not think about what's going to happen, not knowing where you are going to be at the end of this month - but I am trying to do it - to not think too much about it. I mean it does make sense doesn't it! Me spending every waking moment wondering what's going to happen is not going to change the outcome. All I can do right now is send out a positive vibe - and leave it to the greater power to make it happen. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">I hope that works! </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">There are so many blogs and books out there that talk about the power of positive thinking and inner peace. It's amazing! I have experienced it.. the power of positive thinking. Its wonderful. It's a shame that I am not able to apply it to every aspect of life. All I am looking for is a little peace of mind... but isn't everyone looking for the same thing?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">I guess that's the reason I have not been able to come up with anything to write about in such a long time. I don't think about stuff as much as I used to. So that's a good sign I guess. But it's too bad that I am not able to write about stuff unless I have a reason to. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">Before I end this - I have to say that there is something amazingly calming about sitting in a room alone - with only a soft light, soft music and a scented candle. There are rare moments when I can enjoy this.. so I am going to go back to it and try to find some inner peace :)</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">Cheerios!</span></span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-44517847532424804782009-03-09T14:00:00.001-07:002009-03-09T14:03:22.146-07:00today's snow brought me my peace...<meta equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8"><meta name="ProgId" content="Word.Document"><meta name="Generator" content="Microsoft Word 12"><meta name="Originator" content="Microsoft Word 12"><link rel="File-List" href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Csheth.s%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml"><link rel="themeData" href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Csheth.s%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_themedata.thmx"><link rel="colorSchemeMapping" 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with a cold; this makes me low as it is. On top of that it’s been snowing almost all day and it’s been really gloomy outside. And finally, Rahul’s mom passed away, that was the worst news. Not a very uplifting start to the day or the month. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">All day have been trying to think how to put positivity to work in such a situation. But have been coming up with nothing. All I keep thinking about is what he must be going through. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">We being so far away from home, feel so helpless. It will take him an entire day to reach home. How does one deal with such a situation? </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">All of us went to see him in the afternoon. He and Sweta were holding up fine. All they can do is get on the first flight out. It’s just really sad, not being there during the final hours. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">To be very honest, I was thinking about how I would deal with such a situation, were something like this happen with me, what would I do? God forbid something like this happening… but it’s just something that came to my mind. I don’t know why… but it just did. What would I do, how would I react… </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">Now I am wondering, does anyone else ever think like this or about this? The thought, it was scary…</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">The only thing I wanted to do after coming home was calling and talking to mom but couldn’t do it, as it was very late their time. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">And it’s weird how we are wired inside. One incident is all it takes to bring out all the insecurities within us that we have been hiding. Something gets you down and all the other things that make us low, the thoughts that we have been able to keep under wraps, come creeping out making us feel worse than ever.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">Its 6:00pm on 2<sup>nd</sup> March… the day is almost come to an end… am sitting at home, with a cup of coffee writing this. Hoping that by getting these thoughts out on paper, I will feel a little better. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">Just remembered something… this other thing… was chatting with a friend the other day and he was really sick… he’d been like that for almost a week… told him to go see a doctor, but he was trying to put it off… then he got<span style=""> </span>worse… told me that he wanted to go back home and was missing his family. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">Just another incident that makes you feel helpless. Makes you realize that you are all alone here. Yes, you may have a lot of friends, but at the end of the day, they all leave and you are left alone. It’s just not the same as having your mom there… to make soup or remind you to take your medicines… </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">Mom – no one can ever replace this one person in our life… no matter how much we argue or fight with her. At the end of the day, we want her near us when we are feeling low. </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;">Miss you mom, hope you come visit soon...</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:85%;"><o:p> </o:p></span></p> Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-82353856582884151232009-02-24T13:15:00.002-08:002009-02-24T13:20:02.303-08:00Back in Amrika!!<span style="font-family: verdana;font-size:85%;" >After all the hassle at the Indian airport, it felt good to be on the flight ready to take off. Did not expect Valentines Day to end the way it did. Was left wondering what else was in store on this trip. But I guess the adventure ended with the day and that was a good thing :)<br /><br />Had a good flight but the anxiety came back when I was standing in line for getting the immigration done. All the thoughts about how things could go wrong rushed in my head but then I reminded myself of all the books that I have been reading about being positive and stuff... well that helped. It was just great to hear the 'Thap thap' of the stamps on the passport and the officer at the immigration desk say 'Welcome'. The worst was over.<br /><br />While I went on my way completing the other formalities, it left me wondering how different it felt being here. Different in the way of people greeting you, smiling at you as you passed them. I was back in the land of 'Hi's and Hello's', Sorry's and Excuse Me's and the one thing I like the most...Smiles... lots of them.<br /><br />People being calm and patient, no one getting irritated while waiting for their turn in the line.<br /><br />I had to collect my luggage and then find my way to the AirTrain to get to terminal 8 from terminal 4 for my connecting flight to <span class="yshortcuts" id="lw_1235510112_0">Boston</span>. I asked my way around and then this really nice person on the train gave me tips on how to get out of the train without having my cart stuck between the platform and the train door.<br /><br />I found the check-in place and after that was done went on my way to finish the security check. I was waiting in line there when I heard some one call out 'Come on over here honey'... yes people talk like this to strangers here... not all of them of course, but I have come across a lot of such people. I cannot even imagine someone being so sweet back home. Like I mentioned before people back home are just very hassled.<br /><br />For breakfast had a grilled cheese sandwich. I actually smiled at myself and said - welcome to Amrika when I was trying to choose what I would eat.. No more <span class="yshortcuts" id="lw_1235510112_1">Wada Pav</span> or Samosa... or bhel puri or theplas and parathas served hot :) THAT is what we miss here... the food choices and the <span class="yshortcuts" id="lw_1235510112_2">side dish</span> that comes with all of them when at home - LOVE.<br /><br />Once the security was done.. i was on my way to waiting for 4 - 6 hours to get on my flight to Boston. Luckily for me, I got on an earlier flight and so did my luggage. I reached home 2 hours ahead of time. Which was great. My friends came to pick me up at the airport, we took a cab back home and then I went over to their place for lunch stayed till dinner and then came back home at around 930... Slept like a log. Now am sitting on my side of the couch :) typing this email while sipping a cup of black coffee.<br /><br />Though every other person you cross on the street greets you with a smile, they do it out of habit. Its wired in them. You like it in the beginning but then realize that its only a habit and that you have caught it too. You too smile and greet the person. You catch it on so fast that when we come back home and do the same, people wonder if we are crazy :)<br /><br />But with all of this... Home is still home... even though people dont smile at you or greet you on the streets, the love that you find there is something that you will never find anywhere else in the world. Once you make a relation, people live upto it till the end. That is something that you dont find here. Here everything is just a formality. Everything happens with appointments.<br /><br />Honestly, during this trip home I was actually torn between staying or leaving. I really liked my trip there, I felt connected and wanted to stay more. I was very confused as to what my future plans should be. While staying in the US has its own pros, coming back also seems a viable option.<br /><br />Only time will tell what happens... for now of course am missing home and wish people were here... its super silent here, will take some time to get used to it...<br /><br />Have now decided to try and stay more in touch with family. Well... have to go and get ready to go for lunch at a friends place... have to start cooking in the evening... Routine shuru :)<br /><br />Here's to keeping in touch and staying connected...</span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-78941850575295580152008-10-14T14:00:00.006-07:002009-02-24T13:34:19.253-08:00I lost my Happy Place<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">It's a beautiful day today and I have been inside with the curtains pulled shut, sitting in a dark room with my laptop in front of me.<br /><br />Have been thinking of all that has happened and all that is yet to come. None of it makes any sense. I keep wondering about the things that have happened and don't know why they did, just can't make any sense out of it. Would I do them differently if I had a chance - you bet I would!<br /><br />I don't know what is planned for me, but I do know this that what ever I do today is going to be a part of what I get tomorrow. So I have decided to do things differently from now on. Not let the past ruin what I have today. I saw what it does to me when I end up thinking of all that has gone by and frankly, I don't like what I become when I am there.<br /><br />Sometimes I just feel like going away. Just getting away from everything that is real. But I guess it's not possible in the real world... you just can't cut yourself out of the picture. Whatever I have to do is going to have to be done by staying right here, in the now.<br /><br />I guess we have to keep doing a self check every now and then. Have to remind ourselves that things are not all that bad. And when they do get bad, we just have to open the curtains and look outside... only then will we see that the day is clear and its beautiful outside. And everything is going to be just fine.<br /><br />I lost my happy place a few days back... and then realized that it was right in front of me all the time... all I had to do was open the curtains...<br /><br /><br /></span></span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-87341566878663052612008-06-12T19:23:00.007-07:002009-02-24T13:35:35.642-08:00The effect of a Song....<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-family:verdana;">Its weird how a song has the power to bring back the oldest memory in such deep detail that you remember everything, even things you want to forget...<br /><br />A song, the words... bring back everything...put you back in that moment. You can see yourself in the exact location or state you were in. What you were wearing, the ambiance, the smell and over all, THE FEELING... you feel the exact same thing you felt at that moment.<br /><br />The heart captures whatever happens in those few minutes to a song that was playing at that moment. And of course this happens only when that moment means something to you... it doesn't matter if later on in life you think of that moment in the same way... you might want to hold on to it or completely forget it... whatever the case that one song just brings it all back to life...<br /><br />Just another way our mind works... associating memories to a song... i wonder if we can do more with this power (can I call it a power?) or ability that we have...<br /></span><br /></span></span></span>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-10289927149101695932008-04-14T08:08:00.011-07:002009-02-25T13:27:46.219-08:00My Bucket List.... :)<div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Have written so much about everyday things that happen in life and make you think... thought of putting down somethings that I keep saying I want to do... it goes like... i have to do this... and have to see this.... well... here's what I want to do... (inspired from the Movie - The Bucket List...)..not necessarily in this order... </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span></div><ol><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Lose Weight</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Visit Europe</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Buy my own house</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Learn Photography</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Learn to speak a foreign language</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Learn to play at least one instrument</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Re-do the entire kitchen at my parents house as a gift to Mom.</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Sky dive</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >White water Rafting</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >See all of India</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Visit Alaska</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >See the northern lights (Auroras)</span></div></li><li><div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Go to the Caribbea</span></div></li><li><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Learn to swim.... almost there!!!<br /></span></li><li><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Go SCUBA diving</span></li><li><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >...many more to be added..<br /></span></li></ol>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-53312448531114567912008-04-14T08:08:00.010-07:002009-02-24T13:37:04.413-08:00Are they Selfish or Smart???<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">It’s sad how things change. The way the road suddenly splits and you have to make a choice. How people choose different paths. How they take the easy road when they hit a road block. Instead of trying to clear out the road block they choose to just walk away. It’s easy for some people to block things in life; things that are not doing any good to them in their life. Should that be called a selfish move or a smart thing to do?</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><br />Looking at it in one way only makes it seem the logical thing to do. I mean why bother oneself with things or people that are bad news for you. Just block them out of your life and go behind the things that make sense to you and what you truly want. Just chuck everything else. Throw it in the nearest available dumpster and walk away, as fast as you can, never look back and see what happened of it.<br />But like it’s said, everything has a second side. And this one makes it look like the most selfish thing to do. Use something/spend some time with someone for sometime because it makes you feel good at that time. Then after some time you realize that this thing/person that was making you happy is of no use anymore and is not doing you any good. So you toss it away. Not even giving it a second look. Not caring about what happens of it. Here I use ‘it’ for a person and a thing as that is what the person who has been through something like this feels, like an unwanted mantle piece.<br /><br />It’s sad that there are people like this in this world. I keep wondering how one would get over this. This gash in the heart that opens every now and then, you carry on with your day to day activities not letting anything cause the gash to reopen and then something happens and there it’s open again. How long does it take to heal? Only time will tell, is the only answer that comes to my mind. No matter how much one tries not to think about it, it does not help. That pain is there all the time, reminding you that you stopped thinking about it and you are back to beginning of the loop.<br /><br />The more you avoid it, the more you are reminded of it… so what is one to do? Think about it and hurt or not think about it to end up thinking all over again.<br />It’s a sad state that is beginning to sound funny… are you laughing yet?</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-85815721050889213542008-04-14T08:07:00.006-07:002009-02-24T13:37:32.822-08:00What would life be without friends...<div align="justify"><span style="font-size:85%;">I want to dedicate this to all my friends who have stood by me at all times.<br /><br />Everyone is selfish at one point in time. So was I. Maybe more than once. I admit it. There have been a lot of situations in my life where I have done things that I was warned against. But me being me, stubborn as a log, never listened and did what I thought was making me happy just to find out at the end that they have been right all along. Even after going ahead with what I thought was right and then being wrong they have always been there with arms wide open. Ready with tissues to help me through this.<br /><br />I have always claimed to be very independent. A person who can stay on her own and not need anyone... but the truth is this is not entirely correct. I have always needed someone by my side at every point of my so called independent lifestyle. And I have found these guys next to me at every step.<br /><br />I confess that I have done some really stupid things in life and have gotten myself in such situations from which I have always come out on the losing end. Instead of screaming at me and telling me "I told you so", my friends have been there telling me "Its ok, things are going to be ok".<br /><br />I want to dedicate this blog to my friends, they have been my family when I am not at home and thats been a really long time now.<br /><br />I have to say this that if it was not for them, there would have been a lot of days of depression and lonliness. They have never let me be alone, though they might not be sitting next to me. They have always been a phone call away. Ready to listen to hours and hours of the same talk.<br />I want to take this moment to Thank them ... though I know some of them would say that I am swearing at them by thanking them. But I really want to Thank them with all my heart. Coz I don't know how I would have gotten through all of my tough times.<br />Thank you for standing by me. Listening to me when all I did was babble. Thank you for holding the tissue box while I poured my heart out.<br /><br />Thank you for being family to me.<br /><br />I also want to say sorry. Sorry for all the things that I have said and done during all my different Phases. I know that I have said and done things that I have hurt you and there is no way I can change that. I can only say that I will not side-line you ever again. And if I do I invite you to come and take me left and right.<br /><br />Gals and Guys I salute you for standing me and at the same time standing by me. Love you all!!!</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-35280964376416191872008-04-14T08:07:00.005-07:002009-02-24T13:37:19.764-08:00I don't know what to call this one...<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Best friends, Friends Forever, Best Buddies... do all these things mean anything when you know that you are together only for a short while? What happens when you go back to where you've come from. For instance you are in a new town for work, you stay there for sometime and then after a while you know you are going to back. You meet a lot of new people, you get close to a few. But then what? One day you go back and then thats all there is.</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><br />You keep in touch regularly for a while and then it becomes once a week from everyday and then once a month and then slowly it just fades off. Not that you do it on purpose or anything. You just get so busy with your own life that a day comes when you run into each other and are like 'Oh my god! its you! its been so long..." or something like that. Why do we have such a hard time keeping in touch with people we once called our friends... ?<br /><br />I was once told by someone that when you are away from home and make friends there, you are just friends due to need.. and it is just for that much time that you are great buddies and then when one of them goes back, its all over. All that remains is just memories of all the fun times that you had.<br /><br />Why is it that you cannot keep in touch with people you claimed to be your great friends once you go back to where you came from? Is it so difficult?<br />Its happened to me as well... but i fail to understand it. I have accepted this fact that when the people I spend so much time with here go back to India, I cannot expect them to be the same. They are going back to their lives... something they have kept on hold. You don't matter to them then. As they are back with the people who have always been most important to them. You were just someone they ran into when they were out of town...someone for them to spend the time with while they made plans of going back.<br /><br />You are only just a memory of someone who they met when they visited a new town...<br /><br />Here's to all my good Friends and to all those people who said they were Friends Forever... Cheers!</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-13416846420013365492008-04-14T08:05:00.004-07:002009-02-24T13:41:46.415-08:00Forgive and Forget !??!<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Forgive and Forget...a very simple statement but it has great implications... </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Is it possible to forgive a wrong and forget all the hurt and pain that was caused? YES, It is. Not an easy task but possible. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">You might wonder, why forgive a person who has done you wrong or forget something that has hurt you and caused you pain, specially if the person who did it, did so knowingly. Well, its simple. For your peace of mind. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">This is what I feel: </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">There is no point in keeping all the anger and frustration inside. The only way to move on is to completely forgive the person. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">When I say completely forgive, what I mean is not have any grudge against that person what so ever. When you meet or speak to this person, there has to be no sign of the hurt and pain. You have to be at peace with yourself. Every time you feel angry or negative towards this one person just think of all the nice time you had with him/her. Thank God for all the nice times that you had and then forgive this person for causing you all the pain. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Come to understand that there are some things that you just cannot control. Why be angry at one person for something that went wrong. As they say... there are 2 sides to every coin. No one person is ever at fault. It has to be both ways. ALWAYS! At times it might so happen that only one person may be affected more in the whole situation. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Things go wrong. Shit happens. Its life. People fight, some make up some don't. But even if you don't make up doesn't mean you have not forgiven the person. You just have to be so at peace with yourself that whatever has happened should not affect you anymore. Forgiving someone doesn't necessarily mean that you have to be buddies again. Its just that you have to let go. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">It takes a strong person to forgive someone and be-friend them again, after all that they have put you through. Everyone has this strong person in them. Its just a matter of time that this person will surface. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">There are some who just move. But deep down inside they carry with them the pain of whatever has gone wrong. And then there is one day when all of it just surfaces and they go through the entire cycle of getting over it. Why do this to yourself? Why go through the horror over and over again. Forgive and Forget people. Be at peace with yourself. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Let go...Its not impossible, try it!</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-48994944159329842672008-04-14T08:02:00.004-07:002009-02-24T13:37:45.296-08:00Relationships....so many strings attached...<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">So many strings attached or is there only one... the one called 'Love'?</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">ok..let me get straight to the point here... i am not talking about relationships we have when we are together in the same town... when we can meet each other every now and then...what I am talking about here is when we are not in the same town and the only means of contact is the phone or webcam... what happens then... how far does the string get streched and how long will it hold?</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">I have been talking to my friends who are here in the US with me and have their boyfriends/girlfriends back home in India... and they keep telling me about how things are between them... then I was talking to some of my friends who are single and who are the spectators, like me and it got me thinking...</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Well there are the good times and the bad in all relationships...but when it comes to the long distance...its a whole different ball game...its like a test that life puts you thru... a test of your love and understanding for each other...</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">You don't know what is going on in your partners life...all you know is what they tell you. You call them everyday...talk about things that happened in the day and maybe a few other things and then you get back to your daily chores. What if you don't call them for a couple of days? Will they understand? Will they believe you when you try to reason? </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Why do you talk to your better half everyday, maybe even twice a day? Is it because, you miss them or is it because you think that if you don't call them regularly they might forget about you..?? tough question and a mean one too... i agree; but it is just something that came up when discussing about this topic with a friend... </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Long Distance Relationships (LDR), can do 2 things...1. Destroy your relationship by creating all the possible misunderstandings or 2. Make your relationship so strong, that nothing in this world can come in between you. I hope all my friends find that LDRs lead them to point #2.</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">There are so many things that go wrong... you have fights and cannot go over to the others place to talk about it... you may have to wait for days before you hear the voice of your loved one after a fight... but the one who has hung up and not talking doesn't realize what chaos is going on in the others mind, who is so far away from home... its very critical, for the person back home to understand the mind set of the person here... coz this is a mean land... no one is anyone's here... unless you have friends to comfort you, you are all by yourself and even after that at the end of the day you are left all alone with your thoughts... its the scariest feeling of not being able to talk to that one person who means so much to you... this is where your mutual understanding is tested...</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">But that doesn't mean that only one person does all the understanding... it shouldn't happen that only one of you is making all the adjustments... and at the same time convincing him/herself that things are going to be ok... thats not fair either...why should just one of you go thru this ordeal... Love is about sharing and I feel even this feeling has to be shared...</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Its very difficult to understand whats going in a persons mind, when you can't see their face... you can tell a lot from a persons facial expressions during a conversation... </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">You spend time with your local friends... go out..party, have fun...and then all of a sudden you feel guilty about all the good times that you have had without your loved one with you... is this right? I don't think it is... coz you are allowed to live your life... thats what love is... love is letting go... and not holding on... letting go and trusting that your love will return... as it was always... with new stories to tell... new experiences to share... </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">There is a lot more that one can write here.... may be i will return and continue... till then...think about it... enjoy your life even if your loved one is not with you... it doesn't mean that you have stopped loving them...or that your love for each other has become any less... all it means is that you are living your part of your life... think of it like this... it will give you a little more to talk about on the next phone call... it will add those lovely 10 mins to the call that goes on for hours... it will just say that.... I miss you, I love you... and so I am living my life to the fullest... coz it makes me happy to see you happy... and when both are happy...there is no place for doubts and misunderstandings...</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Like one of my friend says... Life is only as simple as you make it :) Fall in love people... over the seven seas .... its a very strong string... it won't break that easily....</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-6342932834345360632008-04-14T08:01:00.003-07:002009-02-24T13:38:36.960-08:00I want to go to Amrica...<div align="justify"><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Everyone these days wants to come to the US... Me too was excited about coming here... and everyone in my family was oh so proud. But reality hits when you get off the plane and walk into the airport. You are in awe of the huge airport, the massive buildings, the system in general. Everything is great in the beginning. Then you reach your hotel room or where ever it is you are going to be staying. You are all by yourself. Don't know anyone (you are lucky if you have people here), don't know anything. You feel lost. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >This is where you start thinking of all the things you left back home. Your folks, friends, dog... you miss the smell of the wet mud when it first starts to rain. You miss rushing in the morning so that you get your 8:10 train to work. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >What is so great about this part of the world that everyone is so attracted to it? Why do people give up everything back home to come here? Well, one part is the amount of money you make here. No one can deny that... but at the end, you miss what you left behind. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >You spend all your day in office in front of the Computer screen, then you get back home and cook food, and you are back in front of the screen...waiting for your loved one to come online so that you can tell them about your day and ask them how their's was...</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Here friends become family. In this land of opportunity, you come across so many different people away from home...all here with one purpose to make something of themselves. Some tired of the way things are back home... but at the end of the day we are left with a feeling of emptiness, loneliness... we may not say it, but all miss the chai ki tapri and wada pav... the road side chinese and tandoor... the bhel puri and the katta where we used to hang out with our friends... the times we spent with our family... all the small little things that we used to take for granted in our day to day lives... we miss all that... and hope that soon we will go back to all that. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Till then lets just enjoy the pizza and the burger and have a sip of the machine made coffee while we wait for our loved ones to come online, so that we can tell them how our day has been just like the one we had when we first arrived here...to tell them that we miss them and love them and hope to see them soon.</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style=";font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;" >Long live the american dream.</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-31220126989585144532008-04-14T08:00:00.004-07:002009-02-24T13:38:10.791-08:00Decisions!<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">There are so many instances in life where we have to make decisions... right from what to wear for work to who to marry... There are so many times where we have to choose from. Sometimes the choices are easy and sometimes they are not all that simple. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">There are times when you want to do something, but deep down inside you know that it is not exactly what you should be doing. Maybe it is the wrong thing to do. But you still do it...why? Maybe because you like doing it. Maybe because it makes you happy...but all of this doesn't make it right and at one point of time you have to decide! You have to make a choice...else your conscience is going to eat you up.</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">This is the most difficult thing to do I think... Choose between something that makes you happy and the right thing. Makes life a little hard I guess, but at the end of the day you have to do the right thing. It makes us all sad to give up something that makes you happy but we have to do it! </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">So here's to doing the right thing, even though it makes you sad!!! </span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-60136041579234908032008-04-14T07:59:00.002-07:002009-02-24T13:39:06.536-08:00For one more day...<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Just finished reading this book...'For one more day' by Mitch Albom. A nice book. Touches your heart in a very subtle way. A story of guy who does somethings because of which he ends up all alone and decides to end his life. This is when he meets his dead mother and how he gets one more day with his mom. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><br />Made me think... isn't it true that sometime in our lives, we too have taken our parents for granted. They go thru all the hardships to put us thru the best schools and colleges. Get us the best clothes etc... and then one day we grow up and are embarrased by the same things that we used to love about them. We forget all that they have been thru, overlook all the times they have stood up for us and then one day we move out... move on and get too busy with our lives... call them sometimes... and visit them only on festivals... or holidays...<br />We take everything they did for granted..forgetting to appreciate them.<br />Today, I am here away from them... and I wish I get one more day with my mom. Where I can tell her how much I love her and miss her. How grateful I am for all that she did. For the sweets that she made, for the great meals she cooks... for all that she's done for me in all these years. I wish I get one more day with my dad, so that I can tell him that I love him and that I appreciate everything he's done. One more day so that I can sit with them at the dinner table and have a healthy conversation. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><br />One more day as a family!<br /><br />I love you mom. I love you dad. And I am thankful for everything that you have done! I am here today because of all the sacrifices that you made and really appreciate that.<br /><br />Well I guess I will get this one day soon enuf...but for all those who won't...remember that they are always with us...as long as they are in our hearts, they are alive - in us. We all have a little of our mom and a little of our dad in us... </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-78508551448661963722008-04-14T07:58:00.003-07:002009-02-24T13:39:20.561-08:00The Perfect Life<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Each one of us have sometime in our lives pictured the perfect life for ourselves. We have wanted perfection in one or more aspects of our life... like the perfect dress, the perfect job, the perfect partner... what have you....<br /><br />We sometimes try to get closer to this idea of perfection that we have through someone... then maybe that person is a good friend or just someone we came across...<br />What we fail to understand is that this person we are using as a prop has a life of his/her own...and we cannot expect that they leave everything they have for us.<br /><br />Looking at it with a different angle, we migh be the prop for someone else's idea of a perfect life... the perfect friend or whatever... but do we think that while we live in this illusion of the perfect life, we are inturn affecting the lives of the people around us? How do we get ourselves out of this imaginary world and face the facts that the world is not a perfect place to live in... that every turn that you take has something new to offer... and that this uncertainity in life is what makes the life ahead a perfect place to be...<br /><br />Its easy living an illusion...just make it all up as we go along...and we will have no problems at all... but then when we do come out of it where do we stand... how do we deal with it then... how do we explain to ourself that the real thing is much more severe than we imagined it to be...<br />So I think its time for us to wake up and come out of this illusion of the perfect world and instead of just living an illusion try our best to actually make this world; our world, a perfect place to be in.<br /><br />I don't know if anything I have written makes sense... but ... its time to wake up and smell the coffee... the perfect world is awaiting us...</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-53050245165804589902008-04-14T07:57:00.002-07:002009-02-24T13:39:33.169-08:00Attachment...<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Getting attached to people is real easy. All it needs is a little care. If the person shows a little care towards you and if you get along well...u r attached!!!<br />As with everything it has its ups and downs... you tend to get used to being around that one person and then when one day that person has to leave, you feel lost. As if there is nothing you can do anymore. Its not true though. The lost feeling is normal. It takes some time to actually absorb the fact that the person has to move on for maybe a new job, or he/she gets married...the reasons could be varied.. the fact remains that you are left hurt and feeling lonely. Specially if you hung out with this one person a lot. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><br />You learn to move on too... true you miss the person and wish that they would not leave. But, this is life and the only thing that is constant in life is change... so i guess the best thing to do is tell the person that you will miss them and move on..<br /><br />the best thing to do here...the ideal thing is not to get too attached to anyone... have to learn how to do that though.</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /></span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-25836701938200702842008-04-14T07:55:00.005-07:002009-02-24T13:39:43.329-08:00Mistakes...the whole 360 degrees...<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Just yesterday I was thinking of all the mistakes we make in life... how they all get to us some way or the other... Now, when I say mistakes I don't just mean the intentional one's, coz these do get back at us in some way...the one's that I am more concerned about or those that worry me the most are the one's that we don't know we have made!<br /><br />Like take for instance the misunderstandings that you can have among friends...you don't know about it till something goes majorly wrong between you and the friend. You either end up talking about it, which is a good thing of course, or you end up losing a good friend...for what?? This was not intended...<br /><br />Sometimes, we forgive and forget...but that does not help either, as then the person who has done wrong, thinks he can do it again. But you don't want to lose a good friend...so what do you do in this case. What if your being nice is the biggest mistake you are making??? What then?<br />When does being nice to someone spoil things? What is the limit that we have to set? Who sets this limit? These are some questions that no one but you can answer!!! You set the limit and decide when to stop being nice... but then the question arises...what if it is too late?<br />How do you mend something that is broken from the inside and does not show the cracks on the outside?<br /><br />Everything that you do comes back to you in some way or the other...even being nice to someone has its own drawbacks...When being nice to someone, make sure that it is not morphing into a big mistake that can spoil things not just for you, but for all those who are involved...and sometimes, for those who are not too...<br /><br />This, has been my lesson for now...</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-15253903357138962992008-04-14T07:54:00.003-07:002009-02-24T13:40:04.935-08:00Confusing times... where do i find the answers???<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Sometimes we just put ourselves in a situation that we later don't understand how to get out of. At such times we wish there was someone we could talk to, someone who could help us get out of this situation we have gotten ourselves into. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">But is there really such a person in the world who has the answers. I mean, if we ourselves are not able to figure it out how do we expect a person from the outside to help us out. This is what I think...when we turn to this one person for answers, answers are not what we are looking for. We are looking to this person for support. Someone who will be there with us in whatever we do. Someone who will just sit there and listen to us and say ok, what you are doing may work.<br />I don't know how far this makes sense. Sometimes, we might have 10 people to talk to but at the end of the day it just feels like we are all alone... thats what they say right... you come into this world alone and you leave alone... but what makes this journey purrrrrrrfect is this small number of people who have touched our lives. </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">We may have a 100 friends and out of these 100 there maybe a few that we are very close with. Then why at the end of the day do we feel lonely and lost. As if there is no one and we are left on this planet to face everything by ourselves.</span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">There are certain decisions that I have made. I don't know if they are right or wrong... I don't know if whatever I am doing is good for me. I cannot lie here...whatever I have decided... I am a little selfish... there is somthing good that comes out of it for me too... but for how long? I don't know... </span><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Both these people I have come across are nice people. Then why do I feel I cannot trust them sometimes... but in both the cases, the feeling of the heart is much stronger than the thought of the brain. So if I doubt these ppl after I have done something... like talk to them when I am not supposed to... would I be doubting myself and my decisions???</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4034995857133610.post-57648979694053550252008-04-14T07:53:00.004-07:002009-02-24T13:40:32.462-08:00Life!<div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">LIFE...A very heavy topic to start with... but I guess we are all in awe of this one little word. So much to learn, so much to cherish. Not one day in a person's life is like the other. Even if we say that our life is so routine. The same drill everyday from sun up till sun down... but if we look at this routine with a microscope we can see that not one day is the same as the other. Everyday we come across something different. We meet new people, connect with them. In some way or the other even if we have met a person for a couple of minutes...they have made a significant difference in our lives. Everyone we come across teaches us something, whether we like it or not. Its up to us to keep the lesson learnt or to forget it.<br /><br />Life brings with it its own thrills...ups and downs... new experiences with things as well as people.<br />Having lived alone for sometime now I never came across a lot of different people, as I was staying on my own and didn't go out much. Even my friend circle has been limited to my really close friends. I was always scared to experiment and try new things. But even that small group I have come across a different person in each one of my friends. Each with his or her own identity.<br />Now that I have moved away from home and am staying in this alien world called the US, I know how important these people are to me. Life here is all the more different. Everyone is on their own...everything is so formal. This is a place where we really come to understand the love and care that people back home have for us...</span></div>Sailihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02543511810283154714noreply@blogger.com0